Satoi!! Vihdoinkin... Ja ukkosti<3 onneksi ehdin pihalle valokuvaamaan ennen kuin sade loppui koska tulin pihalta viisi minuuttia sitten ja nyt siellä ei enää sada. Auringonpaisteesta ja sateesta saa hienoja kuvia, tässä teille niitä mitä pystyin ottamaan kun oli kamera käsissä ja yritin pitää sateenvarjoa jotenkin ettei kamera kastuisi....
It rained! At last... There was some thunder, too <3 luckily, I was quick enough to get rain photos before the rain ended. I was photographing outside for five minutes and about five minutes after I got inside the rain stopped. You can take cool and beautiful photos of rain and sunlight and here's a few of those!
perjantai 26. heinäkuuta 2013
keskiviikko 24. heinäkuuta 2013
Random Photos From A Random World
En ole tehnyt oikein mitään pitkään aikaan. Kirjoittanut ehkä vähän ja kuunnellut musiikkia ja kuvannut outoja kuvia... Ja harjoitellut kaikki hiraganat ja katakanat (osaan ne siis kaikki nyt tai ainakin toissapäivänä osasin), siis japanilaisia kirjoitusmerkkejä (niitä on molempia 46). Kaikki on niin tylsää. Lisäksi luin juuri neljä Artemis Fowlia kolmessa päivässä.
Tuntuu, etten ole kehittynyt missään mitenkään... Sanokaa jos nää kuvat on parempia ku aiemmat, jooko?
I haven't done really anything in a while. Maybe written something and listenedd to music and took random photos... And read four Artemis Fowl- books in three days. Everything's so boring. I don't want to go to school when it begins (12th of August)...
I feel like I haven't become any better in anything in any way... Please, let me know if you find any of these photos better than the ones that I have taken before...
maanantai 22. heinäkuuta 2013
There and back again (a weekend with 100 miles of cycling)
Last weekend was a physically hard one. Me and two three of my classmates went to Maria and her family's cottage which is in Ypäjä, 75 km:s (about 46 miles) from Turku and me and other two of us cycled there. The only boy in our group came with his motorcycle (I don't know if it really is a motorcycle in English but that translation is close enough for me). I didn't take many photos because I didn't have the camera on hand and we stopped only five times.
Halfway to Ypäjä and maybe the third stop... (And the one in the front is Maria) |
The road we took was long and it had too many big hills and straight parts in my opinion but it was the shortest road. We left at 11 am. The weather was beautiful. I had a big bag of food in the back of my bike and I had so much food that I couldn't eat it all...
We arrived in the cottage at 5:20 pm, shortly after this photo was taken.. We were exhausted but we got some food after we got inside and then everything was better after the long hours spent in the saddle.
We played cards, ate too much and watched a movie (Snow White And The Huntsman) which wasn't bad but it wasn't very good, either.
I woke up at 10 am. We ate breakfast and chatted in the living room until half past twelve. We packed our things and left, again with cycles. Only me and Maria cycled the whole way back to Turku. It took longer than the other way.
Halfway to home... |
When there was only about 20 km:s to Turku (about 12 miles) I spotted a raspberry bushel. It was a huge one and we picked raspberries for at least ten minutes.
The weather and the company were nice so it was a nice trip though a long and hard one. :)
maanantai 15. heinäkuuta 2013
The Raven and The Flower – part 2
I finished it! This part is a bit longer because it took more pages than I thought. It's strange how the two girls this story is about remind me of two other girls in another story of mine.
About the names: all of the names are from nature (that's something anybody would've known). Lilian is something about lilies and Strelitzia is a flower. (it looks like this.)
Suomeksi niitä jotka eivät ole itsestäänselviä (kuten Crow)
Rook = mustavaris
Jackdaw = naakka
Magpie = harakka
Strelitzia = kolibrikukkien latinankielinen nimi
Here comes the rest of the story. Enjoy!
(and again sorry for the grammar mistakes.)
About the names: all of the names are from nature (that's something anybody would've known). Lilian is something about lilies and Strelitzia is a flower. (it looks like this.)
Suomeksi niitä jotka eivät ole itsestäänselviä (kuten Crow)
Rook = mustavaris
Jackdaw = naakka
Magpie = harakka
Strelitzia = kolibrikukkien latinankielinen nimi
Here comes the rest of the story. Enjoy!
(and again sorry for the grammar mistakes.)
The Raven and The Flower – part 2
I
started searching the girl that had saved me on that night. I asked
after her when I went shopping for the ingredients for our meal. Rook
had drawn a picture of her and explained there how she looked. Still
nobody seemed to have seen her. I felt depressed because I wanted to
find her and thank her for saving my life. I became desperate and
because I couldn't do anything I got depressed. One day I asked if I
could go visit Crow's grave. It wasn't far but my chores stopped me
going anywhere without permission. I don't think Magpie would have
wanted me to go away for the day but I got my permission from the
butler and the next day as Jackdaw and Rook had left I dressed myself
in black breeches and a black sleeveless shirt and walked to the
cemetery that was within half an hour's walk from the mansion.
There
was grass on Crow's grave. I lied down on his grave like he could
recognize me if I was on top of him. I had used to lie on him while
he was sleeping when we were little. “Crow, help me”, I
whispered. There was no sound for a minute but then I heard a crow
cawing in a tree above me. I lifted my gaze from Crow's gravestone
and saw her. Her hair wasn't red or very long but I knew right away
that this was the girl who had saved my life.
“Thank
you, Crow”, I whispered and kissed the ground. Then I rose up and
walked beside her. She didn't notice me right away but soon she
spoke. “What do you want from me?” she asked coldly. “I don't
know you so if you have nothing to say, go away.”
I knelt
down in front of her. “I am the one whose life you saved from the
street warriors”, I told her. “I owe you my life for that.”
She
sounded astonished when she spoke. “Raven?” she said. I nodded.
“Rise, please”, she said hastily. “You shouldn't kneel in front
of me.”
“Why
not?” I asked as I rose from my knees. She was shorter than I was.
She shook her head. “I'm not a person who should be thanked for
saving anyone's life. It's my job, after all.”
“Your
job?” I asked, astonished and shook my head. “How can
anyone have such a job?” She shrugged shyly. “I don't know. It's
not something I have been told to do. I just do it because I can and
I can't do anything else to help people who need help.”
“That
sounds awesome”, I said. “I'm sorry if I offend you but can you
tell me your name?”
She
thought for a while. “I think I can tell you my first name”, she
muttered. “My name is Lilian”, she said to me and smiled. I
smiled back to her. “It's a very beautiful name”, I told her.
It was
only then she noticed the tattoo on my left shoulder. “Have you got
a tattoo?” She asked. “Let me see it!” When I covered it with
my hand she sighed. “It's okay even if it's a Clan tattoo”, she
said. “There are no Clans anymore, remember?” She said. When I
didn't move she looked at me sadly and said: “Please?” She looked
so adorable that sighed and let her look at my tattoo. It was a raven, the size of my palm. It was different from all the other members
of the Crow Clan. I was the only one that had raven, the others had
crows. It hadn't been Magpie's doing so he didn't know anything about
it.
“I
thought that the bird would be a crow”, Lilian said wondering. “Why
do you have a raven? Does it have something to do with your name?”
I shrugged. “Nobody told me. My mother could've known since she did
that tattoo to me but she died seven years ago. I never had the
chance to ask her about that.”
“Oh,
that's sad”, Lilian said. “I still live with my mom. I didn't
believe the life in the Clans was so hard.” I gave a laugh. “If
you say that the things you know about me is a hard life, you don't
know what is a hard life”, I said. Lilian looked offended for a
moment but then she smiled, looking troubled. “I'm sorry”, she
said. “I thought that my life was hard but maybe yours is harder.”
I shook my head. “Don't say that”, I said. “I may have lost
three family members and almost a fourth, but it doesn't make your
life any lighter if you think it has been hard.”
She
smiled to me. “Thank you”, she said. “Were you here to see
someone from your family?”
I
nodded. “Our big brother died after the Clan war XXV. I came to see
him because I was looking for you.”
Lilian
didn't have time to say anything because someone shouted her name. I
didn't hear what they shouted but Lilian was in a haste. “Goodbye”,
she said. “I'll come to see you.” She took a few steps and then
turned back, hesitating for a moment, took my face between her hands
and kissed me on the mouth. She left me there, stunned, and ran away
her black skirts lifted to her knees.
I stood
there for a time that felt like an hour.
There
was nothing but Lilian in my mind for the next few weeks. I was
thinking about her all the day. I didn't know who she was and I
didn't dare to ask since I didn't know her family name. Magpie always
said that love was a poison inside our veins and I thought that he
was right. The kiss Lilian had given me was like a paralyzing poison
that spread through my whole body. It felt so good that I begun to
think that Magpie was wrong about love. Maybe he had never been in
love or poisoned. I had been poisoned during the Clan war XXV and now
I was in love. I couldn't see how the two of them were similar in any
way.
I know
that Lilian visited the mansion few times but I never saw her. She
either went to see Magpie or was here so little time I couldn't see
her. It was frustrating.
One day
Rook and Jackdaw came to my room with huge smiles on their faces.
“Guess what”, Rook said mysteriously. “You'll never guess”,
Jackdaw added.
“What
is it?” I asked. Jackdaw looked at Rook who started to explain. “We
found the one who saved your life”, she said proudly. Jackdaw
nodded eagerly.
“What?”
I was astonished. They had never been in the mansion when Lilian was
here so I didn't think they had seen her here. Jackdaw nudged Rook on
the shoulder. “Look, what did I say? She's happy about it.” Rook
smiled at him. “Where did
you see her?” I asked eagerly. Rook looked at me a while before she
answered. “In our school”, she said. “She's two years above us
so we don't see her often.”
“I
don't think she comes to school that often”, Jackdaw added.
“Anyway”, Rook continued, “she doesn't have long red hair but
otherwise she looks exactly the same. It took a long time from us to
find out her name.”
“She's
royalty”, Jackdaw said.
“And
not just any royalty. She's the heir to the throne, Lilian
Strelitzia. But the strangest thing about her is that even when all the
royal names are flowers and the Queen's symbol is a rose but her symbol
is a raven. It's strange, isn't it? Just like she would be one of us.”
Suddenly I felt dizzy for some reason. “A raven?” I said,
dumbfounded. Nothing made sense.
“Yes,
a raven, just like the one on your shoulder”, Rook said.
“Just
like the one on my shoulder...” I whispered. What did it mean? “I
wish mother was here”, I told Rook and Jackdaw. “I would have
many things to ask her...”
Next
time I heard from Lilian was when she sent me a royal-looking
envelope in the morning. Magpie brought it to me himself so I thought
it was somehow important. When I took the letter out I found out it
was an invitation to the Heir's ball. A royal ball where they say the
heir to the throne chooses her spouse. “But I can't dance!” I
told the invitation. It remained silent so I sighed. “Blah. And
it's on the day after tomorrow... I should get a dress, at least!”
I hurried to Magpie and explained him the letter and that I had to
get a dress to the ball.
“That
means you're going?” Magpie said suspiciously. I nodded. “Of
course I'll go. Can Rook and Jackdaw come too?” Magpie shook his
head. “The invitation is only for you. I can get you a dressmaker
who'll make your dress. I will have you taken to that shop at noon,
is that okay? And someone has to do something to your hair.”
I was
surprised about how quickly I had the dress. It was ready long before
Rook and Jackdaw got home from school. The dressmaker recommended a
jewelry shop to the butler that had come with me and we went there.
I had nothing to say in that matter so the guy who sold the jewelry
picked the jewelry I was to have in the ball. There were black diamond earrings, a black wristband and white pearls for my hair.
The
Heir's ball came quicker than I had expected. Rook helped me dress
and she did my hair, too. She was skilled. Rook curled my hair and
put some black roses and the white pearls in it. My dress had a white bodice and the hem
was as black as my hair. When Rook was done, I almost couldn't
recognize myself in the mirror.
“Will
she recognize me?” I asked Rook. She smiled. “Of course she will.
You have your raven”, she said touching to my left shoulder. I
smiled too. “Thank you, Rook”, I said and embraced her. We stood
there for a while and then Rook said, “you should go now.” I
nodded and let her go. “See you tomorrow”, I said and walked to
the butler who was waiting for me in the doorway.
The
journey to the castle didn't take long because I went there on a
carriage. Everything in the carriage was either black or white just
like my outfit. When we arrived I stepped from the carriage into a
chilling evening. As soon as I got out a bullet whistled past my ear.
It didn't startle me but few of the other guests that were nearby
were even more startled.
“I'll
hurry inside”, I mumbled. “I'll be so fast that nobody can kill
me before I meet Lilian.”
I got
inside the castle without anybody else trying to kill me. I felt like
everybody was staring at me. I knew I didn't look like an assassin
like usually but the only other reasons that somebody would want to
stare at me was that they either wanted to kill me or I looked weird.
Or
maybe they know that Lilian has visited me, I thought.
I
couldn't see Lilian anywhere but the dancing hadn't started yet. I
thought that maybe she would come out when the dancing begun.
I
didn't dare to eat or drink anything because I feared that the food
or drink might be poisoned. I acted like everything and everybody was
a threat to me. I didn't know anybody so I couldn't trust any of
them. I just waited for Lilian.
I stood
by the wall and I think I looked so plain that nobody wanted to talk
to me. I was the only one in the ball who was dressed in black. The
men who didn't have white suits had gray ones. It felt strange.
Always when we had had festival in the Crow Clan, everybody had at
least something black on. The most of us had dressed in all black.
I heard
somebody announcing that “Lilian Strelitzia”, had arrived. I got
up immediately from my position where I was leaning to the wall so I
could get a better view to the place where the big pair of doors had
been opened. I saw Lilian standing in the doorway, her gaze searching
the crowd, trying to find somebody. I wished that that somebody would
be me. I saw her noticing me and bursting into a smile. Then I saw a
man with a green suit and a shotgun that was pointing towards my
head. I ducked under the railing just in time. The man missed me and
his bullet hit the window behind me and broke the whole thing. Shards
of glass rained down on me and few of the other guests that were
there with me.
I ran
to the stairs, crouched that I couldn't be seen from the dance floor.
When I reached the stairs there were so many people around me that I
was safe. Lilian hadn't moved much so I found her quickly and
directed my walk towards her. She looked worried so I wanted to go to
her and tell her that everything was going to be okay, someday...
“Lilian”, I called, hoping that she would hear me. Luckily, she
heard me and found me in the crowd. She started to come towards me. I
was so concentrated in her beauty that I didn't notice the assassin
standing by Lilian's shoulder with a long dagger.
I heard
the thump when the dagger hit my stomach. I doubled over and
held the hilt with my both hands. It hurt. The people around me were
screaming. I noticed the man that had thrown the dagger. He looked
satisfied.
Lilian
knelt beside me. I hadn't noticed that I had fallen onto the floor.
Everything felt strange.
“Raven,
can you hear me?” Lilian said hastily. “Put your eyes on me,
please, dear”, she added when I didn't answer.
“I
have been stabbed before”, I grunted.
“Not
like this, I believe”, Lilian answered when she examined the wound.
“I need to take that dagger away that it can heal properly”, she
said to me. “May I?” I shook my head. “You better leave it
there, I'm not going to survive this time.” I smiled. I wouldn't
have thought I would be so peaceful when I knew that I would die.
“The dagger was poisoned, I can feel it.” The stunned expression
on Lilian's face made me sad. “Don't be so sad”, I told her. “I'm
going to meet Crow tonight...”
I
remember the pain when Lilian took the blade away. Then everything
went black and I don't remember much but I am sure I saw Crow.
I woke
up somewhere where everything was white. I couldn't see anybody else.
First I thought that I had to be dead but then I heard Lilian's
voice.
“Yes,
she's kind of alright”, I heard her say. “Well, come see her
yourself.”
I heard
a door open and close. Then I heard footsteps and saw three people
coming towards me.
“When
she was about to die she turned into a raven”, Lilian explained.
Rook and Jackdaw looked at me sadly.
“At
least she's alive”, Rook said. “I can't believe they had the guts
to do that.”
“Will
she get better when she's in that form?” Lilian asked the twins.
They looked at each other.
“Yes”,
Rook said after a moment, “but it will take her years to recover
because she was about to die.”
“But
she will recover”, Jackdaw said cheerfully. “I heard that Magpie
has gone through a similar situation and it took him five years to
fully recover from that. But then you'll be able to kiss.”
“Jackdaw!” Rook said, stunned. I cawed before Rook hit him and
they turned towards me. “Lilian”, I said, “I love you.”
There
were tears in Lilian's eyes. “I love you too. And I will keep you
safe until you can turn back to human. You won't leave my side.”
She stroked the feathers on my head. “You're so beautiful”, she
whispered.
I could
turn to a human for a short time after a year. That was when we
kissed the second time. I had to turn to a raven almost right after
we kissed but her kiss seemed to do something magical. It didn't take
me but three years to recover fully.
We got
married shortly after that. After the wedding we went to visit Crow's
and my parent's graves. I introduced Lilian to them.
“Mother, father, Crow”, I said. “I promised that you would meet
whoever I was to marry. This is Lilian Strelitzia. She's the Heir to
the throne and she's my princess whose sweet kissed saved this poor
warrior from the death. I owe her my life twice and I love her above
everything else.”
Lilian
smiled.
I love
her.
sunnuntai 14. heinäkuuta 2013
The Raven and The Flower
I haven't been able to be on the computer for few days. And yesterday I begun writing a short-story which isn't so short as my previous ones. And it's in English so it has taken more time to write it. It's soon almost six pages so I'll put only the first three pages here today also because it's not finished.
I'm sorry for the grammar mistakes.
Enjoy!!
I'm sorry for the grammar mistakes.
Enjoy!!
The Raven and The Flower
“I know I am shorter than
you but that doesn't give you the right to hit me”, I said to the
eleven guys around me. Every single one of them was taller than me
and I'm actually not really short. “Do you always go around hitting
short people? That's rude.”
“We didn't hit you
because you are short”, the man beside me said, “but because you
shouldn't be here at all.”
“And you look weak”,
someone other added.
I smiled briefly to the one
who had said I look weak.
“The thing is”, said
the man – obviously their leader – in front of me, “you are in
our territory. Our boss doesn't like people coming and going however
they will from our borders. It's okay so long as they have our
permission. But you, young lady”, he said leaning above me, “you
don't have anyone's permission, do you?”
I remained silent and
continued staring into his brown eyes.
He sighed. “Very well, if
you won't say anything you don't leave many options to us. Boys, what
shall we do to her?” he looked around him and the rest of the men
grinned. The boss turned to me and grinned, evil look in his eyes.
“Beat her, boys!”
I had enough time to take
my weapons. As I fought them I thought that they could be drunk
because they had failed to do a body check to me. I would've done
that if anyone as suspicious as myself had come into our territory
she or he wouldn't have been armed a second after meeting me.
I sighed in my mind as one
of them ripped my left sleeve off. He didn't have time to see the
tattoo on my shoulder because I shoot him in the head. The only one
who saw it was only one who was alive.
“You”,
he said breathlessly. I said nothing as he went down on his knees.
“Please don't kill me, I did only how I was told”, he begged.
“We
all do”, I told him as I shoot him in the head. The alley was
quiet. I had nothing to do there anymore. My job was done.
“The
Viper won't be messing with us for some time”, I muttered as I
turned myself into a raven and flew away.
“Did
your mission go well?” Crow asked as the manor's door closed behind
me. He had been on a similar mission in the territory of the Squid. I
shrugged. “I got all the information Heron wants but I had to kill
eleven people”, I told him. “They were sent to beat me – I
don't know what's the point in beating people when it would be more
profitable to kill them – and I couldn't get away from them without
revealing my business there or killing them.”
Crow
nodded shortly. “So your mission went better than mine. I almost
got killed by his right hand before I could get all the information I
needed. Luckily for me, that bastard missed by little so I only got a
bullet through my ear”, he explained pointing the bandage around
his head.
“Oh,
I'm sorry to hear that”, I said, touching the bandage where it was
bloodied. He shook his head. “It's nothing, I've got worse injuries
before.”
Then we
reached the Heron's room. “You first”, I said to Crow who shook
his head. “No, you first”, he said. “I insist”, I told him.
“You arrived here first so it's you first.”
Crow bowed his head to me and knocked on the door. After a while we heard
Heron's voice say “come in”. I tried to give Crow an encouraging
smile but Crow didn't look like I had succeeded.
It
was thirteen months since I had gone investigating in Viper's
territory when the Clan war XXV started. It was a horrible time. We
couldn't trust anybody we didn't know for sure to be on our side.
Everyone on the streets was our enemy. We couldn't leave the manor in
daylight and in the night we had to be extra sure nobody's gun wasn't
on us especially when we were in our bird forms. People died everyday
on every side. It was actually a strange kind of war because nobody
had allies and that made a long list of enemies. Every Clan fought
against every other Clan. Nobody who belonged in a Clan was safe
anywhere in any time of the day. It was a very stressing time. I
remember that almost every person I talked to appeared to be very
strained. I didn't go outside my rooms very often during the Clan
war. I just looked out from the window. I refused to talk to anybody
else but Crow, Jackdaw and Rook, who were my foster siblings. I
didn't talk much to them, either but it was just usual me.
Many of
my Clan died before the war ended. Crow was one of them. He died
seven months after the war had started. It wasn't until then the Clan
war XXV ended.
“Where
are we going to bury him?” Jackdaw asked me when we sat in the
morgue few days after Crow's death. When I remained silent he went to
ask Rook the same question. Rook muttered something I thought was:
“Crow would've known.” All three of us were shocked because of
Crow's death. Jackdaw was overly happy and went around arranging the
funeral. Me and Rook, on the other hand, were silent and stared at
nothing most of the time we were awake.
I
remember that when our foster parents were still alive and father
died, the both girls had been the same as our mother. All the three
of us just sat and stared at nothing while Crow and Jackdaw were
happily arranging the funeral.
Crow's
funeral wasn't as grand as some other's who had died in the war.
There were only the three of us in the cemetery. It was a sunny day,
such as Crow had said he wanted his funeral day to be. His grave was
next to our foster parent's grave. When the body had been covered in
soil and the grave was full the gravedigger left us alone. I started
to sing when I knew he couldn't hear us. Rook joined me and Jackdaw
in his time. It was an old song of our original Clan, the song made
to the founder of our Clan. Her name had also been Crow so we had
thought that Crow would've liked it. At the end of the song, we all
had started to cry. I was the eldest now so I took the younger ones
and hugged them.
“He
won't come back anymore, will he?” Rook asked quietly. I shook my
head. “No, he won't”, I said sadly. “He's gone forever and we
won't see him until we, too, die.” All the three of us fell silent.
The
wind started to blow and it dried the tears in our faces. I lifted my
gaze from the ground – and that's when I first saw her. Also
dressed in black, she looked so beautiful the tears came in my eyes
again. I didn't know her then, because she didn't belong in any Clan.
Jackdaw and Rook noticed my staring though she didn't. When I
couldn't see her anymore and turned my gaze away they were grinning
to me.
“What?”
I asked them. “Nothing”, Jackdaw said, and I didn't trust at all
in what he said, partly because he glimpsed at Rook and they both
started to giggle.
“What's
so funny?” I asked, smile creeping to my face. They only laughed
harder and I felt really embarrassed.
Both me
and Jackdaw got pretty fast over Crow's death. Rook, however, didn't
seem to be getting over it even half a year later. Rook was very
distant and cold. She refused to answer to anybody else but me.
Jackdaw begun to avoid her company and I was the only one in the
whole world who could see her every day, partly because I was the
only one she let into her room at all. Rook wouldn't talk so I
remained silent, too. I watched her eat and when she had finished I
would play something sad to her with the piano that was in her room.
First I had tried to play something cheerful but it had made Rook
cry. She said it reminded her of Crow.
About
eight months after Crow's death Rook tried to do a suicide. I think
that was the thing that shook the whole Clan awake from the dream
that everything was all right now because we weren't at war. Rook was
taken to the hospital because she had lost much blood. Jackdaw seemed
to blame himself for Rook's condition. I was afraid that he would try
to do the same as Rook so I talked to him.
“Jackdaw”, I started. He turned his gaze towards me. “What?”
he asked. “You aren't going to kill yourself”, I said. Jackdaw
looked a bit surprised but I continued. “Rook is going to survive
and if she gets home and you're dead... Let's say that then I'm the
only one left.”
Jackdaw
smiled and stood up. “Don't worry about that”, he said as he
embraced me. “I'm not going to do a suicide because Rook tried it.
I think that one suicidal per family is quite enough.” I wonder why
did I start to cry, but it could have been because I was so relieved. I
couldn't stop crying for a long time. We stood there, Jackdaw and I,
embracing and he was stroking my hair. I think he was a little
puzzled about comforting me because it had always been me who
comforted him.
Soon
after Rook was taken to the hospital I learned that she wasn't the
only one suicidal in our Clan or in any of the Clans, I believe.
There were some people among our Clan who tried to do a suicide and
two of them succeeded. I think I wasn't the only one who thought that
maybe the Clan war XXV was the last one.
During
the next year everything went bad. Every Clan seemed to be begin
coming apart and ceasing to exist. It took two years all the Clans
had ceased to exist. Ours wasn't the biggest but it was last to go.
Magpie, the leader of our Clan said that we had to do it because if
we had been the only Clan left, the next few years we all would be
assassinated and that's not what we hoped for. Our clan didn't come
apart but we abandoned the name “Crow Clan”. We all had to get
family names. First we were told that we had to get “real first
names, too”, but we protested. Our first names were the proof that
we belonged in the same family. And we had never had other names so
we didn't want to change them.
All
those who had belonged in the Clan couldn't live in the manor anymore
but we three could stay because our mother had been Magpie's niece.
After
the Breaking of the Clans we didn't know what we should have done. We
had been trained to be warriors, assassins and investigators. Jackdaw
and Rook, too, although they had been only twelve when the Clan war
XXV had started. Magpie had to put them in a high school. I think
they didn't fit there. They had uniforms that looked silly. Neither
of them liked those and they rebelled against the rules all the time.
We had had a home teacher when we lived in the Clan. Jackdaw told me
that everybody either feared or admired them. He couldn't seem to
decide which was worse. Rook told me that even the teachers feared
them. She said that they weren't punished if they broke the rules. I
know that they had to do cleaning or loads of extra homework but
Jackdaw and Rook didn't think that as a punishment since they had
been living so hard life before.
I, on
the other hand, had nothing to do since I had already completed all
my studies. I couldn't go to the university because I had thought
that I would be a member of the Crow Clan my whole life like my
parents before me. I think I went slightly mad because I had nothing
to do. I did household chores the whole day until Jackdaw and Rook
had returned from school. I knew I couldn't live like that when I was
in the manor. I tried asking Magpie if I could move away but he
wouldn't meet me.
I
started walking around the city streets in the nights. In the city
there is many streets people avoid. I walked particularly those
streets. Of course, those streets have their kings and queens. They
fight with another gangs. And since I was a stranger, everybody
attacked me. They didn't want to stop trying to best me, even when I
had beaten them numerous times. I rarely got bruises because of my
training. Then, one night, months after I had started going into the
city in the night, they all came at me once. Every single one I had
fought and defeated and more. They hated me very much because I came
there only to fight. They could have killed me if somebody hadn't come
to stop them. I was unconscious, but Jackdaw and Rook, who had come
to carry me home told me that it was one girl, about my age. Rook
said she had had long, red hair. Jackdaw told me she had come to the
manor and told them that I could die if they wouldn't come. I didn't
know how she knew my name or how she chased the “street warriors”
away but I knew that I owed her my life.
perjantai 5. heinäkuuta 2013
Box of Mirrors
I've had a funny day. I started working on the exams after 5 pm (16:00). I made the whole dance choreography in two hours. I played the viola piece five or six times. I sung Live forever three times. I talked my monologue through and thought about the action in it. It's harder than it sounds.
Someday when I was looking at photos on the Internet I saw pictures that some photographer had taken. He had put a camera inside a box of mirrors. I did that too. My box's walls weren't straight so the result wasn't what I had expected but I had fun and the photos were actually quite nice.
Here's a few poems from J:
Sataa lunta
puhtaan
valkoista
haluaisin itkeä
sillä lumi on
kaunista
sinä olet
kaunis
olet kauniimpi
kuin
kädelleni
putoavat tähdet
ajattelen sinua
ja itken
tuntuu kuin
siitä olisi ikuisuus
kun suutelimme
viimeksi
tuntuu kuin
siitä olisi ikuisuus
kun tunsin kosketuksesi
ja minä kaipaan sinua, lämpöäsi
kaipaan sinua ja haluan luoksesi
It's snowing
snow is pure white
I'd want to cry
because the snow is beautiful
you're beautiful
more beautiful than
the stars that are falling onto my hand
I'm thinking of you
and crying
it feels like eternity
when we kissed last time
it feels like eternity
when I felt your touch
and I miss you, your warmth
I miss you and I wanna be there with you
I'm always there
in your heart
I'm always there
giving my love to you
I'm always there
so don't be sad
even when you can't see me
I'm there telling you
to be strong
I'm there
'coz you are my life my love my soul
I love you so stay strong.
The meaning of "forever alone". |
This is the box ;) |
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