perjantai 26. heinäkuuta 2013

Let the raindrops fall on me

Satoi!! Vihdoinkin... Ja ukkosti<3 onneksi ehdin pihalle valokuvaamaan ennen kuin sade loppui koska tulin pihalta viisi minuuttia sitten ja nyt siellä ei enää sada. Auringonpaisteesta ja sateesta saa hienoja kuvia, tässä teille niitä mitä pystyin ottamaan kun oli kamera käsissä ja yritin pitää sateenvarjoa jotenkin ettei kamera kastuisi....

It rained! At last... There was some thunder, too <3 luckily, I was quick enough to get rain photos before the rain ended. I was photographing outside for five minutes and about five minutes after I got inside the rain stopped. You can take cool and beautiful photos of rain and sunlight and here's a few of those!

keskiviikko 24. heinäkuuta 2013

Random Photos From A Random World

En ole tehnyt oikein mitään pitkään aikaan. Kirjoittanut ehkä vähän ja kuunnellut musiikkia ja kuvannut outoja kuvia... Ja harjoitellut kaikki hiraganat ja katakanat (osaan ne siis kaikki nyt tai ainakin toissapäivänä osasin), siis japanilaisia kirjoitusmerkkejä (niitä on molempia 46). Kaikki on niin tylsää. Lisäksi luin juuri neljä Artemis Fowlia kolmessa päivässä.
Tuntuu, etten ole kehittynyt missään mitenkään... Sanokaa jos nää kuvat on parempia ku aiemmat, jooko?

I haven't done really anything in a while. Maybe written something and listenedd to music and took random photos... And read four Artemis Fowl- books in three days. Everything's so boring. I don't want to go to school when it begins (12th of August)...
I feel like I haven't become any better in anything in any way... Please, let me know if you find any of these photos better than the ones that I have taken before...

maanantai 22. heinäkuuta 2013

There and back again (a weekend with 100 miles of cycling)

Last weekend was a physically hard one. Me and two three of my classmates went to Maria and her family's cottage which is in Ypäjä, 75 km:s (about 46 miles) from Turku and me and other two of us cycled there. The only boy in our group came with his motorcycle (I don't know if it really is a motorcycle in English but that translation is close enough for me). I didn't take many photos because I didn't have the camera on hand and we stopped only five times.

Halfway to Ypäjä and maybe the third stop... (And the one in the front is Maria)

The road we took was long and it had too many big hills and straight parts in my opinion but it was the shortest road. We left at 11 am. The weather was beautiful. I had a big bag of food in the back of my bike and I had so much food that I couldn't eat it all...

We arrived in the cottage at 5:20 pm, shortly after this photo was taken.. We were exhausted but we got some food after we got inside and then everything was better after the long hours spent in the saddle.

We played cards, ate too much and watched a movie (Snow White And The Huntsman) which wasn't bad but it wasn't very good, either.
I woke up at 10 am. We ate breakfast and chatted in the living room until half past twelve. We packed our things and left, again with cycles. Only me and Maria cycled the whole way back to Turku. It took longer than the other way.
Halfway to home...

When there was only about 20 km:s to Turku (about 12 miles) I spotted a raspberry bushel. It was a huge one and we picked raspberries for at least ten minutes.

The weather and the company were nice so it was a nice trip though a long and hard one. :)

maanantai 15. heinäkuuta 2013

The Raven and The Flower – part 2

I finished it! This part is a bit longer because it took more pages than I thought. It's strange how the two girls this story is about remind me of two other girls in another story of mine.
 About the names: all of the names are from nature (that's something anybody would've known). Lilian is something about lilies and Strelitzia is a flower. (it looks like this.)

Suomeksi niitä jotka eivät ole itsestäänselviä (kuten Crow)

Rook = mustavaris
Jackdaw = naakka
Magpie = harakka
Strelitzia = kolibrikukkien latinankielinen nimi

Here comes the rest of the story. Enjoy!
(and again sorry for the grammar mistakes.)

The Raven and The Flower – part 2

I started searching the girl that had saved me on that night. I asked after her when I went shopping for the ingredients for our meal. Rook had drawn a picture of her and explained there how she looked. Still nobody seemed to have seen her. I felt depressed because I wanted to find her and thank her for saving my life. I became desperate and because I couldn't do anything I got depressed. One day I asked if I could go visit Crow's grave. It wasn't far but my chores stopped me going anywhere without permission. I don't think Magpie would have wanted me to go away for the day but I got my permission from the butler and the next day as Jackdaw and Rook had left I dressed myself in black breeches and a black sleeveless shirt and walked to the cemetery that was within half an hour's walk from the mansion.
There was grass on Crow's grave. I lied down on his grave like he could recognize me if I was on top of him. I had used to lie on him while he was sleeping when we were little. “Crow, help me”, I whispered. There was no sound for a minute but then I heard a crow cawing in a tree above me. I lifted my gaze from Crow's gravestone and saw her. Her hair wasn't red or very long but I knew right away that this was the girl who had saved my life.
“Thank you, Crow”, I whispered and kissed the ground. Then I rose up and walked beside her. She didn't notice me right away but soon she spoke. “What do you want from me?” she asked coldly. “I don't know you so if you have nothing to say, go away.”
I knelt down in front of her. “I am the one whose life you saved from the street warriors”, I told her. “I owe you my life for that.”
She sounded astonished when she spoke. “Raven?” she said. I nodded. “Rise, please”, she said hastily. “You shouldn't kneel in front of me.”
“Why not?” I asked as I rose from my knees. She was shorter than I was. She shook her head. “I'm not a person who should be thanked for saving anyone's life. It's my job, after all.”
“Your job?” I asked, astonished and shook my head. “How can anyone have such a job?” She shrugged shyly. “I don't know. It's not something I have been told to do. I just do it because I can and I can't do anything else to help people who need help.”
“That sounds awesome”, I said. “I'm sorry if I offend you but can you tell me your name?”
She thought for a while. “I think I can tell you my first name”, she muttered. “My name is Lilian”, she said to me and smiled. I smiled back to her. “It's a very beautiful name”, I told her.
It was only then she noticed the tattoo on my left shoulder. “Have you got a tattoo?” She asked. “Let me see it!” When I covered it with my hand she sighed. “It's okay even if it's a Clan tattoo”, she said. “There are no Clans anymore, remember?” She said. When I didn't move she looked at me sadly and said: “Please?” She looked so adorable that sighed and let her look at my tattoo. It was a raven, the size of my palm. It was different from all the other members of the Crow Clan. I was the only one that had raven, the others had crows. It hadn't been Magpie's doing so he didn't know anything about it.
“I thought that the bird would be a crow”, Lilian said wondering. “Why do you have a raven? Does it have something to do with your name?” I shrugged. “Nobody told me. My mother could've known since she did that tattoo to me but she died seven years ago. I never had the chance to ask her about that.”
“Oh, that's sad”, Lilian said. “I still live with my mom. I didn't believe the life in the Clans was so hard.” I gave a laugh. “If you say that the things you know about me is a hard life, you don't know what is a hard life”, I said. Lilian looked offended for a moment but then she smiled, looking troubled. “I'm sorry”, she said. “I thought that my life was hard but maybe yours is harder.” I shook my head. “Don't say that”, I said. “I may have lost three family members and almost a fourth, but it doesn't make your life any lighter if you think it has been hard.”
She smiled to me. “Thank you”, she said. “Were you here to see someone from your family?”
I nodded. “Our big brother died after the Clan war XXV. I came to see him because I was looking for you.”
Lilian didn't have time to say anything because someone shouted her name. I didn't hear what they shouted but Lilian was in a haste. “Goodbye”, she said. “I'll come to see you.” She took a few steps and then turned back, hesitating for a moment, took my face between her hands and kissed me on the mouth. She left me there, stunned, and ran away her black skirts lifted to her knees.
I stood there for a time that felt like an hour.

There was nothing but Lilian in my mind for the next few weeks. I was thinking about her all the day. I didn't know who she was and I didn't dare to ask since I didn't know her family name. Magpie always said that love was a poison inside our veins and I thought that he was right. The kiss Lilian had given me was like a paralyzing poison that spread through my whole body. It felt so good that I begun to think that Magpie was wrong about love. Maybe he had never been in love or poisoned. I had been poisoned during the Clan war XXV and now I was in love. I couldn't see how the two of them were similar in any way.

I know that Lilian visited the mansion few times but I never saw her. She either went to see Magpie or was here so little time I couldn't see her. It was frustrating.
One day Rook and Jackdaw came to my room with huge smiles on their faces. “Guess what”, Rook said mysteriously. “You'll never guess”, Jackdaw added.
“What is it?” I asked. Jackdaw looked at Rook who started to explain. “We found the one who saved your life”, she said proudly. Jackdaw nodded eagerly.
“What?” I was astonished. They had never been in the mansion when Lilian was here so I didn't think they had seen her here. Jackdaw nudged Rook on the shoulder. “Look, what did I say? She's happy about it.” Rook smiled at him. “Where did you see her?” I asked eagerly. Rook looked at me a while before she answered. “In our school”, she said. “She's two years above us so we don't see her often.”
“I don't think she comes to school that often”, Jackdaw added.
“Anyway”, Rook continued, “she doesn't have long red hair but otherwise she looks exactly the same. It took a long time from us to find out her name.”
“She's royalty”, Jackdaw said.
“And not just any royalty. She's the heir to the throne, Lilian Strelitzia. But the strangest thing about her is that even when all the royal names are flowers and the Queen's symbol is a rose but her symbol is a raven. It's strange, isn't it? Just like she would be one of us.”
Suddenly I felt dizzy for some reason. “A raven?” I said, dumbfounded. Nothing made sense.
“Yes, a raven, just like the one on your shoulder”, Rook said.
“Just like the one on my shoulder...” I whispered. What did it mean? “I wish mother was here”, I told Rook and Jackdaw. “I would have many things to ask her...”

Next time I heard from Lilian was when she sent me a royal-looking envelope in the morning. Magpie brought it to me himself so I thought it was somehow important. When I took the letter out I found out it was an invitation to the Heir's ball. A royal ball where they say the heir to the throne chooses her spouse. “But I can't dance!” I told the invitation. It remained silent so I sighed. “Blah. And it's on the day after tomorrow... I should get a dress, at least!” I hurried to Magpie and explained him the letter and that I had to get a dress to the ball.
“That means you're going?” Magpie said suspiciously. I nodded. “Of course I'll go. Can Rook and Jackdaw come too?” Magpie shook his head. “The invitation is only for you. I can get you a dressmaker who'll make your dress. I will have you taken to that shop at noon, is that okay? And someone has to do something to your hair.”
I was surprised about how quickly I had the dress. It was ready long before Rook and Jackdaw got home from school. The dressmaker recommended a jewelry shop to the butler that had come with me and we went there. I had nothing to say in that matter so the guy who sold the jewelry picked the jewelry I was to have in the ball. There were black diamond earrings, a black wristband and white pearls for my hair.

The Heir's ball came quicker than I had expected. Rook helped me dress and she did my hair, too. She was skilled. Rook curled my hair and put some black roses and the white pearls in it. My dress had a white bodice and the hem was as black as my hair. When Rook was done, I almost couldn't recognize myself in the mirror.
“Will she recognize me?” I asked Rook. She smiled. “Of course she will. You have your raven”, she said touching to my left shoulder. I smiled too. “Thank you, Rook”, I said and embraced her. We stood there for a while and then Rook said, “you should go now.” I nodded and let her go. “See you tomorrow”, I said and walked to the butler who was waiting for me in the doorway.

The journey to the castle didn't take long because I went there on a carriage. Everything in the carriage was either black or white just like my outfit. When we arrived I stepped from the carriage into a chilling evening. As soon as I got out a bullet whistled past my ear. It didn't startle me but few of the other guests that were nearby were even more startled.
“I'll hurry inside”, I mumbled. “I'll be so fast that nobody can kill me before I meet Lilian.”
I got inside the castle without anybody else trying to kill me. I felt like everybody was staring at me. I knew I didn't look like an assassin like usually but the only other reasons that somebody would want to stare at me was that they either wanted to kill me or I looked weird.
Or maybe they know that Lilian has visited me, I thought.
I couldn't see Lilian anywhere but the dancing hadn't started yet. I thought that maybe she would come out when the dancing begun.
I didn't dare to eat or drink anything because I feared that the food or drink might be poisoned. I acted like everything and everybody was a threat to me. I didn't know anybody so I couldn't trust any of them. I just waited for Lilian.
I stood by the wall and I think I looked so plain that nobody wanted to talk to me. I was the only one in the ball who was dressed in black. The men who didn't have white suits had gray ones. It felt strange. Always when we had had festival in the Crow Clan, everybody had at least something black on. The most of us had dressed in all black.
I heard somebody announcing that “Lilian Strelitzia”, had arrived. I got up immediately from my position where I was leaning to the wall so I could get a better view to the place where the big pair of doors had been opened. I saw Lilian standing in the doorway, her gaze searching the crowd, trying to find somebody. I wished that that somebody would be me. I saw her noticing me and bursting into a smile. Then I saw a man with a green suit and a shotgun that was pointing towards my head. I ducked under the railing just in time. The man missed me and his bullet hit the window behind me and broke the whole thing. Shards of glass rained down on me and few of the other guests that were there with me.
I ran to the stairs, crouched that I couldn't be seen from the dance floor. When I reached the stairs there were so many people around me that I was safe. Lilian hadn't moved much so I found her quickly and directed my walk towards her. She looked worried so I wanted to go to her and tell her that everything was going to be okay, someday...
“Lilian”, I called, hoping that she would hear me. Luckily, she heard me and found me in the crowd. She started to come towards me. I was so concentrated in her beauty that I didn't notice the assassin standing by Lilian's shoulder with a long dagger.
I heard the thump when the dagger hit my stomach. I doubled over and held the hilt with my both hands. It hurt. The people around me were screaming. I noticed the man that had thrown the dagger. He looked satisfied.
Lilian knelt beside me. I hadn't noticed that I had fallen onto the floor. Everything felt strange.
“Raven, can you hear me?” Lilian said hastily. “Put your eyes on me, please, dear”, she added when I didn't answer.
“I have been stabbed before”, I grunted.
“Not like this, I believe”, Lilian answered when she examined the wound. “I need to take that dagger away that it can heal properly”, she said to me. “May I?” I shook my head. “You better leave it there, I'm not going to survive this time.” I smiled. I wouldn't have thought I would be so peaceful when I knew that I would die. “The dagger was poisoned, I can feel it.” The stunned expression on Lilian's face made me sad. “Don't be so sad”, I told her. “I'm going to meet Crow tonight...”
I remember the pain when Lilian took the blade away. Then everything went black and I don't remember much but I am sure I saw Crow.

I woke up somewhere where everything was white. I couldn't see anybody else. First I thought that I had to be dead but then I heard Lilian's voice.
“Yes, she's kind of alright”, I heard her say. “Well, come see her yourself.”
I heard a door open and close. Then I heard footsteps and saw three people coming towards me.
“When she was about to die she turned into a raven”, Lilian explained. Rook and Jackdaw looked at me sadly.
“At least she's alive”, Rook said. “I can't believe they had the guts to do that.”
“Will she get better when she's in that form?” Lilian asked the twins. They looked at each other.
“Yes”, Rook said after a moment, “but it will take her years to recover because she was about to die.”
“But she will recover”, Jackdaw said cheerfully. “I heard that Magpie has gone through a similar situation and it took him five years to fully recover from that. But then you'll be able to kiss.”
“Jackdaw!” Rook said, stunned. I cawed before Rook hit him and they turned towards me. “Lilian”, I said, “I love you.”
There were tears in Lilian's eyes. “I love you too. And I will keep you safe until you can turn back to human. You won't leave my side.” She stroked the feathers on my head. “You're so beautiful”, she whispered.

I could turn to a human for a short time after a year. That was when we kissed the second time. I had to turn to a raven almost right after we kissed but her kiss seemed to do something magical. It didn't take me but three years to recover fully.
We got married shortly after that. After the wedding we went to visit Crow's and my parent's graves. I introduced Lilian to them.
“Mother, father, Crow”, I said. “I promised that you would meet whoever I was to marry. This is Lilian Strelitzia. She's the Heir to the throne and she's my princess whose sweet kissed saved this poor warrior from the death. I owe her my life twice and I love her above everything else.”
 Lilian smiled.

 I love her.

sunnuntai 14. heinäkuuta 2013

The Raven and The Flower

I haven't been able to be on the computer for few days. And yesterday I begun writing a short-story which isn't so short as my previous ones. And it's in English so it has taken more time to write it. It's soon almost six pages so I'll put only the first three pages here today also because it's not finished.
I'm sorry for the grammar mistakes.


The Raven and The Flower

“I know I am shorter than you but that doesn't give you the right to hit me”, I said to the eleven guys around me. Every single one of them was taller than me and I'm actually not really short. “Do you always go around hitting short people? That's rude.”
“We didn't hit you because you are short”, the man beside me said, “but because you shouldn't be here at all.”
“And you look weak”, someone other added.
I smiled briefly to the one who had said I look weak.
“The thing is”, said the man – obviously their leader – in front of me, “you are in our territory. Our boss doesn't like people coming and going however they will from our borders. It's okay so long as they have our permission. But you, young lady”, he said leaning above me, “you don't have anyone's permission, do you?”
I remained silent and continued staring into his brown eyes.
He sighed. “Very well, if you won't say anything you don't leave many options to us. Boys, what shall we do to her?” he looked around him and the rest of the men grinned. The boss turned to me and grinned, evil look in his eyes.
“Beat her, boys!”
I had enough time to take my weapons. As I fought them I thought that they could be drunk because they had failed to do a body check to me. I would've done that if anyone as suspicious as myself had come into our territory she or he wouldn't have been armed a second after meeting me.
I sighed in my mind as one of them ripped my left sleeve off. He didn't have time to see the tattoo on my shoulder because I shoot him in the head. The only one who saw it was only one who was alive.
You”, he said breathlessly. I said nothing as he went down on his knees. “Please don't kill me, I did only how I was told”, he begged.
“We all do”, I told him as I shoot him in the head. The alley was quiet. I had nothing to do there anymore. My job was done.
“The Viper won't be messing with us for some time”, I muttered as I turned myself into a raven and flew away.

“Did your mission go well?” Crow asked as the manor's door closed behind me. He had been on a similar mission in the territory of the Squid. I shrugged. “I got all the information Heron wants but I had to kill eleven people”, I told him. “They were sent to beat me – I don't know what's the point in beating people when it would be more profitable to kill them – and I couldn't get away from them without revealing my business there or killing them.”
Crow nodded shortly. “So your mission went better than mine. I almost got killed by his right hand before I could get all the information I needed. Luckily for me, that bastard missed by little so I only got a bullet through my ear”, he explained pointing the bandage around his head.
“Oh, I'm sorry to hear that”, I said, touching the bandage where it was bloodied. He shook his head. “It's nothing, I've got worse injuries before.”
Then we reached the Heron's room. “You first”, I said to Crow who shook his head. “No, you first”, he said. “I insist”, I told him. “You arrived here first so it's you first.”
Crow bowed his head to me and knocked on the door. After a while we heard Heron's voice say “come in”. I tried to give Crow an encouraging smile but Crow didn't look like I had succeeded.

It was thirteen months since I had gone investigating in Viper's territory when the Clan war XXV started. It was a horrible time. We couldn't trust anybody we didn't know for sure to be on our side. Everyone on the streets was our enemy. We couldn't leave the manor in daylight and in the night we had to be extra sure nobody's gun wasn't on us especially when we were in our bird forms. People died everyday on every side. It was actually a strange kind of war because nobody had allies and that made a long list of enemies. Every Clan fought against every other Clan. Nobody who belonged in a Clan was safe anywhere in any time of the day. It was a very stressing time. I remember that almost every person I talked to appeared to be very strained. I didn't go outside my rooms very often during the Clan war. I just looked out from the window. I refused to talk to anybody else but Crow, Jackdaw and Rook, who were my foster siblings. I didn't talk much to them, either but it was just usual me.
Many of my Clan died before the war ended. Crow was one of them. He died seven months after the war had started. It wasn't until then the Clan war XXV ended.

“Where are we going to bury him?” Jackdaw asked me when we sat in the morgue few days after Crow's death. When I remained silent he went to ask Rook the same question. Rook muttered something I thought was: “Crow would've known.” All three of us were shocked because of Crow's death. Jackdaw was overly happy and went around arranging the funeral. Me and Rook, on the other hand, were silent and stared at nothing most of the time we were awake.
I remember that when our foster parents were still alive and father died, the both girls had been the same as our mother. All the three of us just sat and stared at nothing while Crow and Jackdaw were happily arranging the funeral.

Crow's funeral wasn't as grand as some other's who had died in the war. There were only the three of us in the cemetery. It was a sunny day, such as Crow had said he wanted his funeral day to be. His grave was next to our foster parent's grave. When the body had been covered in soil and the grave was full the gravedigger left us alone. I started to sing when I knew he couldn't hear us. Rook joined me and Jackdaw in his time. It was an old song of our original Clan, the song made to the founder of our Clan. Her name had also been Crow so we had thought that Crow would've liked it. At the end of the song, we all had started to cry. I was the eldest now so I took the younger ones and hugged them.
“He won't come back anymore, will he?” Rook asked quietly. I shook my head. “No, he won't”, I said sadly. “He's gone forever and we won't see him until we, too, die.” All the three of us fell silent.
The wind started to blow and it dried the tears in our faces. I lifted my gaze from the ground – and that's when I first saw her. Also dressed in black, she looked so beautiful the tears came in my eyes again. I didn't know her then, because she didn't belong in any Clan. Jackdaw and Rook noticed my staring though she didn't. When I couldn't see her anymore and turned my gaze away they were grinning to me.
“What?” I asked them. “Nothing”, Jackdaw said, and I didn't trust at all in what he said, partly because he glimpsed at Rook and they both started to giggle.
“What's so funny?” I asked, smile creeping to my face. They only laughed harder and I felt really embarrassed.

Both me and Jackdaw got pretty fast over Crow's death. Rook, however, didn't seem to be getting over it even half a year later. Rook was very distant and cold. She refused to answer to anybody else but me. Jackdaw begun to avoid her company and I was the only one in the whole world who could see her every day, partly because I was the only one she let into her room at all. Rook wouldn't talk so I remained silent, too. I watched her eat and when she had finished I would play something sad to her with the piano that was in her room. First I had tried to play something cheerful but it had made Rook cry. She said it reminded her of Crow.
About eight months after Crow's death Rook tried to do a suicide. I think that was the thing that shook the whole Clan awake from the dream that everything was all right now because we weren't at war. Rook was taken to the hospital because she had lost much blood. Jackdaw seemed to blame himself for Rook's condition. I was afraid that he would try to do the same as Rook so I talked to him.
“Jackdaw”, I started. He turned his gaze towards me. “What?” he asked. “You aren't going to kill yourself”, I said. Jackdaw looked a bit surprised but I continued. “Rook is going to survive and if she gets home and you're dead... Let's say that then I'm the only one left.”
Jackdaw smiled and stood up. “Don't worry about that”, he said as he embraced me. “I'm not going to do a suicide because Rook tried it. I think that one suicidal per family is quite enough.” I wonder why did I start to cry, but it could have been because I was so relieved. I couldn't stop crying for a long time. We stood there, Jackdaw and I, embracing and he was stroking my hair. I think he was a little puzzled about comforting me because it had always been me who comforted him.
Soon after Rook was taken to the hospital I learned that she wasn't the only one suicidal in our Clan or in any of the Clans, I believe. There were some people among our Clan who tried to do a suicide and two of them succeeded. I think I wasn't the only one who thought that maybe the Clan war XXV was the last one.

During the next year everything went bad. Every Clan seemed to be begin coming apart and ceasing to exist. It took two years all the Clans had ceased to exist. Ours wasn't the biggest but it was last to go. Magpie, the leader of our Clan said that we had to do it because if we had been the only Clan left, the next few years we all would be assassinated and that's not what we hoped for. Our clan didn't come apart but we abandoned the name “Crow Clan”. We all had to get family names. First we were told that we had to get “real first names, too”, but we protested. Our first names were the proof that we belonged in the same family. And we had never had other names so we didn't want to change them.
All those who had belonged in the Clan couldn't live in the manor anymore but we three could stay because our mother had been Magpie's niece.

After the Breaking of the Clans we didn't know what we should have done. We had been trained to be warriors, assassins and investigators. Jackdaw and Rook, too, although they had been only twelve when the Clan war XXV had started. Magpie had to put them in a high school. I think they didn't fit there. They had uniforms that looked silly. Neither of them liked those and they rebelled against the rules all the time. We had had a home teacher when we lived in the Clan. Jackdaw told me that everybody either feared or admired them. He couldn't seem to decide which was worse. Rook told me that even the teachers feared them. She said that they weren't punished if they broke the rules. I know that they had to do cleaning or loads of extra homework but Jackdaw and Rook didn't think that as a punishment since they had been living so hard life before.
I, on the other hand, had nothing to do since I had already completed all my studies. I couldn't go to the university because I had thought that I would be a member of the Crow Clan my whole life like my parents before me. I think I went slightly mad because I had nothing to do. I did household chores the whole day until Jackdaw and Rook had returned from school. I knew I couldn't live like that when I was in the manor. I tried asking Magpie if I could move away but he wouldn't meet me.

 I started walking around the city streets in the nights. In the city there is many streets people avoid. I walked particularly those streets. Of course, those streets have their kings and queens. They fight with another gangs. And since I was a stranger, everybody attacked me. They didn't want to stop trying to best me, even when I had beaten them numerous times. I rarely got bruises because of my training. Then, one night, months after I had started going into the city in the night, they all came at me once. Every single one I had fought and defeated and more. They hated me very much because I came there only to fight. They could have killed me if somebody hadn't come to stop them. I was unconscious, but Jackdaw and Rook, who had come to carry me home told me that it was one girl, about my age. Rook said she had had long, red hair. Jackdaw told me she had come to the manor and told them that I could die if they wouldn't come. I didn't know how she knew my name or how she chased the “street warriors” away but I knew that I owed her my life.

perjantai 5. heinäkuuta 2013

Box of Mirrors

I've had a funny day. I started working on the exams after 5 pm (16:00). I made the whole dance choreography in two hours. I played the viola piece five or six times. I sung Live forever three times. I talked my monologue through and thought about the action in it. It's harder than it sounds.

Someday when I was looking at photos on the Internet I saw pictures that some photographer had taken. He had put a camera inside a box of mirrors. I did that too. My box's walls weren't straight so the result wasn't what I had expected but I had fun and the photos were actually quite nice.

Here's a few poems from J:

Sataa lunta
puhtaan valkoista
haluaisin itkeä
sillä lumi on kaunista
sinä olet kaunis
olet kauniimpi kuin
kädelleni putoavat tähdet
ajattelen sinua
ja itken
tuntuu kuin siitä olisi ikuisuus
kun suutelimme viimeksi
tuntuu kuin siitä olisi ikuisuus
kun tunsin kosketuksesi
ja minä kaipaan sinua, lämpöäsi
kaipaan sinua ja haluan luoksesi

It's snowing
snow is pure white
I'd want to cry
because the snow is beautiful
you're beautiful
more beautiful than
the stars that are falling onto my hand
I'm thinking of you
and crying
it feels like eternity
when we kissed last time
it feels like eternity
when I felt your touch
and I miss you, your warmth
I miss you and I wanna be there with you

I'm always there
in your heart
I'm always there
giving my love to you
I'm always there
so don't be sad
even when you can't see me
I'm there telling you
to be strong
I'm there
'coz you are my life my love my soul
I love you so stay strong.

The meaning of "forever alone".

This is the box ;)